house_gembell: Black and white photo of a man in his 30s, with blonde curly hair. (Torrin)
Em's using my last name now, instead of borrowing Beth's.

(For a while, she was using her ex-boyfriend Kyte's last name - however, after their explosive parting of ways, she didn't want to associate herself with that name - or the person she was when she had that name. So, being Beth's sister, she borrowed her name - her married last name, anyway, which also felt awkward. Em put it as "wearing a pair of pants that're someone else's - they might actually fit you, but fuck, it feels weird wearin' 'em".)

I won't deny it, it gives me some warm fuzzy feelings deep down inside. There's nothing beyond her just swiping my name, we aren't married - but it still makes me feel good, seeing her name like that. Em Michaels. Emerald Victoria Michaels.

*dopey grin* Yeah. I like it.


Aug. 30th, 2011 08:16 am
house_gembell: Drawing of a young woman with wavy dark auburn hair and black, square rimmed glasses. (Em)
Considering switching back to my personal journal, [personal profile] emeraldenigma, simply because I'm the only one that posts here. O_o Ellie's not much of a journaler, and Beth has her own space, so maybe I'll back up all my entries to [personal profile] emeraldenigma if I can and just scoot back there.

Feel free to go ahead and add my personal journal if you want - I'll probably add everyone back, I'm pretty open. :D There's a lot of rambling and stuff from when I was new here, and a little drama, but mostly just rambling. :P

Ugh. Don't want to get ready for work. But when work is over... I have the house to myself. :D
house_gembell: Drawing of a young woman with wavy dark auburn hair and black, square rimmed glasses. (Em)
Beth stole my thunder tonight! For a little bit, anyway. But other than that, I've had the whole evening to myself. Loud music, talking to Kyte, eating poptarts and all.

I think someone in here has a crush on someone else in another system. She's confused and maybe lying to herself about it, so much so that she projected the feelings through another member of our little system. But yeah. Crushy time. It's kinda cute, actually. XD

But yeah. Had a good night. A great night. It was good, getting out and being me. I feel guilty, coming out when the husband's around, because he wants to spend time with Beth. But since he's got orientation stuff today, here I am. Kinda hope our schedules all work out so I get some free time to myself now and then. I mean, I have to have some me time, right? And the best time to do it is when he's not around. Works out best for everyone. (Although I did have a good walk with him yesterday. We went to go sell an iPod to some random guy on Craigslist, and I was the muscle. XD)

Beth's got a teaching demo tomorrow. I think she'll do just fine - it's Photoshop: The Basics. We'll kick butt in that - I can do it if I have to take over because she gets all anxious. I can handle it. I love me some Photoshop.

Listening to Tori Amos. I think I've always been more of the Tori fan in this little family here - I remember when Beth had a copy of Little Earthquakes she'd ended up borrowing from a friend and she was so afraid to listen to it, simply because one of the songs on it was named Crucify. Oh, Beth. Poor little innocent thing. I reached out to this music before I even had a voice, I think. When we finally got to see Tori back in 2007, I think her music grabbed the part of me that didn't know it was me yet, and dragged it out to listen to Tori. If that even makes any sense. I remember bursting into tears when she started to play "Yes, Anastasia", and clinging to Beth's friend Patty. So glad there was a bootleg of that concert released. That was one of the best nights of my life.

I keep living, I keep experiencing things, and it pulls out memories I didn't even know really belonged to me. Like the Tori concert. I've been here, living a life, all along.
house_gembell: Drawing of a young woman with wavy dark auburn hair and black, square rimmed glasses. (Em)
Had a pretty epic realization on the way home from work today. Well, it felt pretty epic at the time, anyway.

I think it hit us both, Beth and I, that we're essentially twins. We look alike. (I don't know how exactly I never truly figured out how I'd look in the outer world, if I had my own body, but Beth came up behind me in the headspace today, turned me around, and she said it was like looking in a mirror. We're usually both up front at the same time so we don't get much chance to look at each other. :P ) We like the same books, the same tv shows. We feel like two pieces of a puzzle that just nestle together perfectly.

That's not to say I'm a carbon copy of her, or the other half to her whole. Good gods, no. The only electronics I've really figured out how to work are video game systems, while she's built computers. Beth doesn't really drink much, while if left to my own devices I could drain a bottle of chocolate wine in a night. I'm a much more sensual creature than she is. I'm louder. I've got an attitude. I don't take shit from anyone. (I mean, come on, I threatened to shove a My Little Pony where the sun don't shine on the husband when he gave me crap the other day) I like to be social, where she'd be happier just sitting at home all the time. I am the wolf, where she is the kitten.

But realizing that we are what we are together... makes things fit better. Feel better.
house_gembell: (Em: WTF?)
Okay, so I've been shoved to the back quite a bit lately, and it's starting to wear on me. A lot.

I mean, for crying out loud, I'm finally back to being my normal self and now I can't go out and enjoy things, because Beth wants to do stuff or the husband decided he doesn't like me today? (Seriously, one day he was pissed at me because I was around too much and he wanted to spend time with Beth instead, then the next day he buys me a pony, because THAT'll make it all better, riiiight) I'm sick of this, and I'm sick of just not being treated like I used to. Like an equal.

SDRKGJnkrngnngdl. Just... very friggin' frustrated right now.


Aug. 11th, 2011 07:42 am
house_gembell: (Em: avatar)
At the urging of like half the people from [profile] alwaysunami, we started playing City of Heroes yesterday. I think Beth likes it better than she ever liked World of Warcraft, hahaha. In fact, she likes the game so much she ended up getting the very basic version, with no expansion packs, so we could have fun playing without that stupid "you're using a trial version durrrr" thing in the middle of the screen.

We made a character together. XD Her name's Violet Em. (We had a Violet Emerald, too, but since the game we bought is a downgrade from the demo we played, we can't play Violet Emerald.) She looks pretty damn badass. And sexy. I'd do her. XD Can't wait to see Kyte's character. We tried playing with him earlier but we had to go through a huge stupid tutorial, and by the time we got to the end our head was hurting because frigging ALL of us were trying to front. Ellie wanted to talk to Kael, and I do feel a little bad that they couldn't talk, but hey, video game. Playing as Violet EM, not Violet Ellie. XD But yeah. Headache. Nasty one. So we had to leave, and go do something else for a bit. (That something else was watching two hours of True Blood, eff yeah, I think that's my favorite show) When we came back, nobody from Unami was on, so we ended up playing alone.

Hope we all get to play together today. :D I hope. Beth kinda feels bad about not playing WoW, since the husband bought her Cataclysm for Christmas, but maybe she'll pick that up again when CoH goes free to play.

We gotta get ready for work soon. Ended up sleeping in a little today, so we're a little behind. But the sleep? Worth it. XD

house_gembell: (Em: avatar)
So, I think Kyte may have convinced me to start playing City of Heroes. Not sure. Still waiting on the damn thing to download, haha. 16%! This thing may be downloaded by the time we wake up tomorrow, hahaha.

Snuck out at work today, and behaved myself quite well. Apparently the new building we're working in has window shades that can be automatically controlled, based on light sensors and stuff. One of the guys Beth works with calls it "letting HAL control the shades", hahah. Anyway, someone set the shades on auto and they just kept going up and down and up and down, then they'd stay down for a bit, then go up halfway.... XD Yeah. Very entertaining. And there was free coffee! XD Kael had to deal with me going all loopy when we got home. XD

*snorts* Beth's listening to the IT Training podcast, which is done by one of her supervisors and one of her co-workers, and it's so weird hearing the guys come out of our speakers. XD

Okay, I'm done for the night. Beth's gonna do a little work and then go to bed. Yay. XD
house_gembell: (Beth: Twilight Sparkle)
I'm about ready to name our desk Equestria, holy crap. You don't even want to know how many ponies are crammed onto here. I should see about getting the pony shelf up today... I'm still trying to figure out the best place to put it. Hrm.

Well, Ellie's not nearly as upset as she was yesterday, but she's still cranky at Em, especially now that Em told Bryan Ell's secret. Oh, the drama.... *rolls eyes* But yeah. Ellie's alright now, for the most part.

I think we've finally settled in here, in Bloomington - the others are actually starting to feel more like themselves, and I'm pretty comfortable here - it feels like home here, and less like a visit where we're going to head back up to Potsdam the following week. And Em finally is able to completely front again, and Ellie's a bit more talkative and a lot less hidey. Good things all around. :D

Next week starts work at the new office. I'm excited, although there's going to be a lot less privacy there than there was in my sad old cube. Oh well. I'll survive. Just means not letting the girls out at work unless I'm really, really not doing well. Hopefully getting out of Potsdam will help that. We're all very happy to be out of there - just not so happy that it threw us all off kilter so much. ^^;

house_gembell: (Em: WTF?)
I feel like a frigging idiot. :/

house_gembell: Drawing of a young woman with wavy dark auburn hair and black, square rimmed glasses. (Em)
I hate butting Ell out of the way but HOLY CRAP WE FORGOT THE MEME.

So I'm gonna catch us up a little. :D

6. Can you remember things that other people in your group do? Are you aware of what happens in the front when you're not there?
Beth and I generally remember what the other does when one's fronting - unless one of us wants private time, and that's usually me, aheheheheh. But yeah. Beth and I are good at letting the others be aware. Ellie, though, when she goes off on her vacations, she doesn't tell us where she goes. Hell, she doesn't even really talk about them, just that she's gone and now she's back. (speaking of Ellie I hope she sticks around for a while)

7. Do you remember dreams? Are they your own? Do you share each others' dreams?
We remember our own dreams, or sometimes Beth'll wake up and say "Oh, Em had a good dream last night" because she can... kinda feel the residue of that dream? I dunno. Sometimes we do share dreams - we'll both be in one and we'll talk to each other and everything. Mostly Ellie and I share dreams, but once in a while Beth and I will dream together.

8. Do you all take responsibility when you wrong somebody as a group effort, more collective apology or do you expect the person who did the wrong to fess up?
Hm. I guess it's a group effort? Depends on how we screwed up, who it involves, and so on. When I piss the husband off, for example, Beth will end up apologizing for me, because she knows I wouldn't do it on my own. But if I end up screwing things up with Kyte, I think everyone here'd try to patch things up. Mostly because we're close with his entire system. And I think Beth kinda views him as an adorable little brother. But shhh. She probably didn't want me saying that. And I'm way off topic here. Next question!

9. Is there one in your group that stays in the body for more time than the rest? (How often do your primary front-runners change? How often do frontiers switch out? Is fronting a skill that has to be taught?)
Beth tends to have most of the front time, considering she's got the body's legal identity and everything. Aside from her, though, I front a hell of a lot more than Ellie does. Ell and I didn't really need to be taught how to front, although it was a different experience for both of us when we first started to front. Beth had to help me forward - I'd struggle in the back sometimes, trying to get front, and Beth'd play some of my favorite music and it'd get me relaxed enough to get to front. Ellie, she just slips in and out like a natural. Sometimes we don't even realize she's there until she speaks, haha.

10. How do you parcel out time during waking hours between work, school, hobbies, social commitments? Is it left up to whomever is in the front or do you plan it out? How do you balance money/space usage?
We're still working on that, now that we've moved and are trying to settle into a new work routine. I tend to get to come out in the evenings, when we don't have to work, and on the weekends too. And sometimes I sneak out during band practice and play, which is funny, because nobody ever thinks of me as a band geek. As for money? I ask Beth if I can buy something. She asks the husband. He rolls his eyes, and generally I get what I was looking for. Then again, I don't ask for much. The biggest thing I've asked for is my wig.

the rest of the questions )
house_gembell: Drawing of a young woman with wavy dark auburn hair and black, square rimmed glasses. (Em)
This was a good weekend. :D

Got to spend the evening with Kyte yesterday, which was awesome. Dealt with some awkwardness, too, but not with Kyte - just other stuff going on. I stayed up until after midnight. It was awesome. XD I never get to stay up that late!

So, Beth and I came up with an idea for our next NaNoWriMo novel. We're gonna keep it under wraps for now, since we're not sure how well it'll be received. It just hit us, though, BANG, this good idea. We felt it in the same brainspot we did when the idea for last year's NaNo hit us, if that makes any sense. And last year's was a winner, so I think this one could win too. Just gotta figure out what the main story's going to be, how things are gonna flow, what the conflict is. Stuff like that. We've got time. :D
house_gembell: Drawing of a young woman with wavy dark auburn hair and black, square rimmed glasses. (Em)
Mmkay, so posting in two journals every freaking day? Didn't happen. O_o

So I think we're just gonna concentrate on one post a day from House Gembell, whether it be here or at Beth's personal journal.

Not much went on the past few days. We fell asleep at stupid o'clock last night (seriously, Beth, what happened to staying up until midnight?), woke up early this morning, and we've got a long-ass day at work today. Maybe during our afternoon break I'll work on that crazy MLP project we've got going.

Or maybe I'll work on writing a little. Got a very basic outline for our NaNo '11 story, and been cranking out some story snippets for inspiration. Wondering if I'm gonna be the one doing most of the writing this year, instead of just sitting here, trying to figure out how to tell Beth that I'm here.

Maaan. Now I just wanna take the day off and write. Too bad we can't. Ugh. Hopefully the story can wait until after 1.


edit: 750 words about the headspace, or more specifically, my part of it )
house_gembell: (Em: avatar)
Holy crap, who knew picking icons was so hard? I decided I'd find us all some icons that... well, were more us, and it took for freaking ever. And I ended up neglecting Kyte in the process. Which sucks because we hardly talked this week. BLAAH.

In unrelated news, IT RAINED TODAY HOMG. YES. Still humid as all hell outside, but hey, we may be able to bike to work tomorrow! Sweet.

Beth found some ANCIENT pictures of me. From like 2002. She hung them up. I think she's crazy.
house_gembell: Drawing of a young woman with wavy dark auburn hair and black, square rimmed glasses. (Em)
So, Beth and I have just come up with this idea where we're gonna post in our journals every day. (Or someone's gonna post here every day - it's not just my journal, I'm just the vocal one, ha.) So, here I am. Posting. So nobody thinks we're dead.

Can't wait until the heat wave goes. I like it hot, yeah, but 100 degrees is a little much, 'specially with the humidity. Urgh. I want to go to the mall as myself, wig and all. And in loli. I think the husband said he'd dress up with me if I decided to do that. Which is pretty awesome. I think he's tolerating me better. I think.

Work's been busy. I've decided that the best thing to do is just disappear when we're at work - this way we don't have any... incidents like at the non-credit office. I want things to be good for Beth here. I want her to be happy, yanno?

We went to this grad student social night last night, us and the husband. He bought Beth a drink, and just for laughs I fronted for a few minutes. Then realized one of Beth's co-workers was there, freaked, and left. I liked the place, though. Maybe we'll go back at some point when there's no people from work there. Dunno. Rambling. Not enough coffee in my system.

I think I'm gonna redo our journal theme and maybe make us some new icons and stuff today. It's a lazy day, our first day off in a while with no in-laws. YAY. So. Yeah. Gonna lounge around and be productive on the internets. XD Because that's totally productive. Yeah.


edit: Wearing the wig again. I like how very... me I look. I mean, I look at pictures of us where I'm fronting without it, and things just look... weird. ^_^;;
house_gembell: Drawing of a young woman with wavy dark auburn hair and black, square rimmed glasses. (Em)
We are so horrible at memes... Also, since I'm mostly awake, you get the answers mostly from my point of view. (and me = Em. XD )

2. How do you find new members? (Do you find other members mostly through journaling? Or can you see and hear them?)

New members wander in, I guess. Like, when we figured out Ellie was part of the crew, it's because she just came in to visit, like she used to do back when we were younger but didn't realize exactly what was going on. I came out from some nasty traumatic stuff back when Beth was a teenager, and George was always around until recently, and we haven't had anyone new come in since... well, since I came in. I keep forgetting I'm the baby of this bunch, haha. I mean, Ellie just had her 15th birthday! (And that's not how old she identifies as, that's how many years she's been with us)

3. How do you choose who wears what? Do you argue over clothing styles?

OH LORD. Beth dresses like she did in high school - t-shirts and jeans. And I'm sick of it, haha. I like to dress in louder things. Like corsets, fishnet shirts, long skirts, gothic lolita, and so on. Ellie doesn't really care what we wear, as long as it's comfortable. She's not a fan of tight clothes.

4. How are decisions made in the front (consensus/majority rules/one person makes them/other)?

Well, since there's usually only two of us in residence now, and occasionally three, we try to come to a consensus when there's a decision to be made. What's best for all of us, and so on.

5. Is knowledge shared equally or do some people have access to things that other people don't?

We try to share knowledge equally. Ellie doesn't tend to share her knowledge with others, she keeps up a mysterious front, but Beth and I kind of have an open well of knowledge. Or a library. Either way, if I need to know something, or want to know something, I can find it. :D

the rest of the days )
house_gembell: (Default)
Em, grumbling: Why the hell am I up so early? Why the hell are WE up so early?

Ellie: IT'S MY BIRTHDAY! :D And Bryan got me a Rainbow Dash pony! *picks the pony up and flies it around the desk* 20% cooler! *makes little wooshy flying noises*

Em: Ahhhh. Yeah. You do turn old today. :P

Ellie: Just because I've been around longer than you is no reason to pick on me! Hmph. *goes back to playing with her ponies*

Em: Yep, Ellie's been with us in some way, shape, or form for 15 years today. Holy crap. Maybe we should watch some Sailor Moon tonight to celebrate. Or ponies.
house_gembell: Drawing of a young woman with wavy dark auburn hair and black, square rimmed glasses. (Em)
Okay, so apparently nobody else remembered to post yesterday. S'okay. They'll speak up eventually. When they get back. Ellie seems to have fluttered off to wherever she goes, and George is MIA again.

SOOO. Apparently I like Olivia Newton-John. Or just this one song by her. XD Beth heard a bastardized version of it on the radio in a Macy's or JC Penney commercial, and so she put it on on her computer now that we're finally home from the HORRENDOUS BMV, and as soon as it started I friggin' shot forward. XD

Or maybe I like the movie Xanadu. Dunno. It's been years since Beth's watched it. We might have to remedy that. If we can find our DVD.

Work in about two hours-ish. Gotta bring our laptop today, since the workshop we're observing is full. Joy. Hopefully we can actually get on the effing network today. O_o

*hours later*

And apparently I forgot to hit post? OH I REMEMBER. Got distracted with icon making. Whoops.
house_gembell: Drawing of a young woman with wavy dark auburn hair and black, square rimmed glasses. (Em)
Wow. So, Beth hopped on DW to check her reading list, and suddenly EVERYONE clamored at the front, wanting to write. Even George. So you might get an entry from each of us today. Don't want to bombard your reading pages though, so we'll space 'em out.

Yeah, I know, I was on another one of those internet vacations I take sometimes. I just needed to get some space from some things. Get some perspective. Did some thinking, came to some realizations, and here I am again. If anyone wants to know about whatever happened during my last internet vacation in detail, just ask - not gonna post it here.

Getting used to being in a new place. Our room's a mess, but then again, our space is pretty much perpetually a mess, no matter where we are. Beth and I are just messy people, I guess. :P At least the rest of the house looks presentable. I'm amazed at how nice it looks, considering we've all only been here almost two weeks. Then again, those first few days we were here, we were unpacking CONSTANTLY. So that'd explain that, I guess. XD

Went walking yesterday, and ended up going down a bike trail to get to IU's campus. One side of the bike trail was taken up by apartments, pretty tiny ones, and the other side was the railroad tracks. Anyway. As you got further down the trail, there were more and more trees, until you got to the back of the apartment complex where the trees were so dense hardly any grass grew. Reminded us of Beth's mom's house, and while I know nowhere near all our crap would fit in those bitty apartments... I wouldn't mind living there if we were in one of those tree-covered places. But that's just me, and a little bit of Ellie, being all reminiscy.

ALSO. For those of you who heard about our back freakin' out, we're fine now. And for those who didn't hear, our back freaked out on Friday. Muscle spasms like you wouldn't believe. It sucked. 'Specially since I was the only one who could tolerate the pain enough to start swearing, haha. But yeah, we're okay now. :D
house_gembell: (Beth: avatar)
Em just wanted me to tell everyone she's taking another internet vacation. (I know, so soon after the last one, what the eff?) She needs some space from everything that's happening lately... She'll still be around by email, though, if you need her. (Not that many of you have her email address, but if you want it, just ask) Or you can leave comments here and I'll relay them to her.

Meanwhile, I have my first day of my new job today. I am SO excited. Not to mention we're all settling into the new apartment pretty well. I love how huge it is, and how nice it is, and how we have our own room. :) Ellie's happy that our pony collection has grown, too. XD

Wish me luck on my first day of new job! :D


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