house_gembell: (Ellie)
There is plaster dust all over our keyboard. And a pony shelf up. Hooray! We've got our desk back! From down here, it looks like Princess Luna is plotting things.

Been a little bit... thinky lately. I've been thinking about who I am as a part of Gembell. I feel like the cheery, awkward, shy little sister in this strange family. While I'm always happy, lately I seem to be goofing things up pretty regularly. And I really struggle sometimes to get my point across, simply because I'm too shy and it just messes everything up.

I mean, I'll probably never have any sort of significant other, like Em and Beth, because I'm just too shy to actually tell someone I like them. And if I ever did get it out, I don't think I'd be able to hold a real conversation. I just... clam up.

I wish I were more like Em. Bold and not afraid to say what's on her mind.

house_gembell: (Ellie)
I don't think that I've ever really sat down and talked about myself in here. Certainly not before I matured a bit, and I haven't really been here all that much afterwards to talk much. I think I want to change that.

I like to be outside. I like to smell the fresh air, feel the warm sun on my skin, and wiggle my bare feet in the grass. I like to swim in lakes and rivers, I love to sit outside at night and watch the stars. When I disappear for a bit, I generally disappear to this beautiful forest clearing. Trees all around, quiet except for the sounds of animals and birds. It's very peaceful.

I like reading about mythology, and learning about mythological figures. I especially like Ariadne and stories based on her and the labyrinth. Not sure why, but I do. I've read a handful of books based on her mythology, and I've liked them. Except for the last two books of The Troy Game by Sara Douglass, we tried to read that series and liked it at the beginning, and wanted to toss the last book at the wall towards the end. Aheheh. I also like reading about mythology in general, and looking at mythology related art. I think I had a big hand in Beth picking Art History for a major in college.

I like to collect My Little Ponies. But that's not a surprise, now, is it?

I like to listen to music and sing. I like a little of everything, but mostly lean towards upbeat stuff. I like to be happy. :)

I absolutely love to draw and be creative. Drawing is one of my most favorite things to do, drawing and coloring and painting. There's nothing like filling a page with color, bright color, and stepping back to look at it and feeling... accomplished. Good. Wonderful. I'm not so good when it comes to writing, but sometimes I can come up with good ideas, and Ellie and Beth can translate them to words and stories.

I don't like causing people pain, or making people feel awkward. (which I just failed at, because I'm pretty sure I just made Kyte feel all kinds of awkward just now and I feel miserable) I like it when people are happy. I know not everyone can be happy all the time, but I try to help people feel better when I can. It's just how I am.

Gaaah. I lost my little train of thoughts. Now I have no idea what else to write about. So, I think I might just stop here. I can always add to this later, as I discover more about myself.
house_gembell: (Beth: Twilight Sparkle)
I'm about ready to name our desk Equestria, holy crap. You don't even want to know how many ponies are crammed onto here. I should see about getting the pony shelf up today... I'm still trying to figure out the best place to put it. Hrm.

Well, Ellie's not nearly as upset as she was yesterday, but she's still cranky at Em, especially now that Em told Bryan Ell's secret. Oh, the drama.... *rolls eyes* But yeah. Ellie's alright now, for the most part.

I think we've finally settled in here, in Bloomington - the others are actually starting to feel more like themselves, and I'm pretty comfortable here - it feels like home here, and less like a visit where we're going to head back up to Potsdam the following week. And Em finally is able to completely front again, and Ellie's a bit more talkative and a lot less hidey. Good things all around. :D

Next week starts work at the new office. I'm excited, although there's going to be a lot less privacy there than there was in my sad old cube. Oh well. I'll survive. Just means not letting the girls out at work unless I'm really, really not doing well. Hopefully getting out of Potsdam will help that. We're all very happy to be out of there - just not so happy that it threw us all off kilter so much. ^^;



Aug. 5th, 2011 09:21 pm
house_gembell: (Ellie: WHAT)
So. I don't usually get mad but once in a very great while I do and it's not fun.

I told Em a secret and she told Kyte. And I am not happy about that at all.

Grrrrrrrrr. Now I'm mad and embarrassed and I just want to hide. :(
house_gembell: (Ellie)
I'm back from another of my extended vacations! Did anyone miss me? I ended up spending time someplace nice and green. And warm. Then again, everywhere seems to be really warm lately. I like it warm, but not this warm! Even Em's getting sick of the heat, and she'd probably live in the desert if she could.

Em and I have been doing some thinking about spirituality lately - not together, though, it just happens it's been on both our minds. We both tend to lean towards the Greco-Roman pantheon - I think we all do, actually - since we're fond of Greek and Roman mythology. I'm just not quite sure which deity I would connect with the most. I guess I just have to open myself up and listen for one to call to me, or work to see which one I connect to the most.

Hmm. Things to think about, I guess.
house_gembell: (Default)
Em, grumbling: Why the hell am I up so early? Why the hell are WE up so early?

Ellie: IT'S MY BIRTHDAY! :D And Bryan got me a Rainbow Dash pony! *picks the pony up and flies it around the desk* 20% cooler! *makes little wooshy flying noises*

Em: Ahhhh. Yeah. You do turn old today. :P

Ellie: Just because I've been around longer than you is no reason to pick on me! Hmph. *goes back to playing with her ponies*

Em: Yep, Ellie's been with us in some way, shape, or form for 15 years today. Holy crap. Maybe we should watch some Sailor Moon tonight to celebrate. Or ponies.


Jun. 8th, 2011 08:36 pm
house_gembell: (Ellie: avatar)
I wonder if I could consider myself an age slider.

Or if I just managed to age quite a bit in my absence from the house. I certainly don't feel 16 anymore. Not as old as Beth, though. Not even quite as old as Em. But not 16.

I wonder why. And I wonder if I'll slip back.

I guess we'll just have to see, won't we?

Anyway. Apparently I missed a lot while I was gone. I've now got my own room. And it's in a different state. But still. My own room. Well, not entirely my own, I share it with Em and Beth. But it's nice. It's got all our crafting stuff, and our colored pencils, and our pony collection. PONIES. We've got three now! When did that happen? (Actually, technically we have four but two of them are Pinkie Pie) It's nice to have a sanctuary, a place all our own. *smile*

Another bit of strangeness is that Em and I are co-fronting right now. We co-dream sometimes, but hardly ever co-front unless all three of us are squishing towards front. She's sitting here, listening to music, and I'm here, writing.

Beth wonders where I go when I wander off. I go all over the place. Mostly to forests, to quiet places, to retreat. To relax. To connect with nature, to live in nature like we used to when we were one. I especially miss the feeling of dirt under our bare feet, the fresh scent of the breeze at night, the sound the bullfrogs and peepers make as the sun goes down. But we are older now. We can't spend our entire summer living outdoors anymore, all grubby and tanned and skinny from running around.

*sighs* Adulthood makes me weary...
house_gembell: Drawing of a young woman with wavy dark auburn hair and black, square rimmed glasses. (Em)
First off, happy birthday to Beth - if it weren't for her, none of us would be here. So, yeah, happy birthday, Kitten. Here's to many more.

Second off, the horrendous combination of Blackstreet's "Don't Leave Me Girl" and seeing that Unami had joined Multorum Animos (and therefore seeing Kyte's face) is making me a little... heartsore, I guess is the best way to describe it. Sure, neither of us are falling apart anymore, but it doesn't stop me from missing the way things were. I dunno, it feels awkward on my end sometimes. *sighs* Time to hunt down the ice cream again. And Guin's not around to distract me from being a mope. Urgh.

At least there'll be birthday cake later, even though it's not technically mine. I guess we all party today, though, at least Ell and I - George, for understandable reasons, is MIA. We're thinking of him today. Bittersweet kind of day, actually. Cake and moping. Lovely combination.

Beth wonders what he was like, what kind of brother he would have been. We at least know he cares - otherwise he wouldn't have made himself known to us, right? He would have just continued to be phantom sensations and memories that aren't ours.

Okay, back to packing before we all get weepy. That'd be a sucky way to spend a birthday - crying. Then again, Beth spent my birthday back in 2000 crying her eyes out. Yeah. Okay. Enough of this. *trots off to pack boxes*
house_gembell: (Ellie: avatar)
It's May! Warm and springy and pretty outside! The trees have leaves, and there are dandelions on the front lawn, and Beth's birthday is coming soooooon! I love spring.

Em is alright if anyone's worried. We watched ponies together today. It made her feel better. :D But yeah. Maybe she'll be around on the internets later this week - I dunno.

Hope everyone is having a happy May! :D
house_gembell: (Ellie: PONIES OMG)
Cel gave us PONIES OMG

I have never watched the ponies before but if they're like the icon I found I AM GOING TO LOVE THEM




Mar. 30th, 2011 09:20 pm
house_gembell: (Ellie: avatar)
Sooooo, I don't think I've made a real entry before in Beth's journal or here! (well, obviously not here, because Em just made this today) So here I am! :D

I went grocery shopping with the husband last night! It was the longest I'd been out ever. And it was fun. We got chocolate and pierogies and noodley dinners and iced tea. And bread. I like bread. And we talked a lot, too. The husband is nice to me! I dunno what Em's problem with him is. *shrugs shoulders*

I also talked to Em's boyfriend today! He's nice too. We didn't talk for very long, though. I learned he lies to Em about his age. *gasp* I wouldn't lie to anyone about my age. I'm 16. And I like being 16. It's fun. I hope I get to stay 16 forever. :D

I can't wait for summer. I want to run around outside and listen to music and go swimming. And in summer we're going to be moving! I hope we move someplace nice. :D

Okay, Beth told me I need to go so she can finish this glass of wine. Phooey.

Ohh, and Em and I started out our posts the same way! Hahahaha, that's funny.


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