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Jun. 4th, 2011 11:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
house_gembellOh lord. I missed the internet. I missed being connected to everyone. *hugs the internets*
Although tonight just seems to have turned into a big-ass drama mess. And I feel like it's my own fault, bringing it on myself.
Lemme explain it. I was considering coming up with some sort of pen-name for when Beth and I do NaNoWriMo later this year, since I can't be Em Buck with there being an Em Buck in the story. That, and there's the whole thing with the last name being from one of Beth's exes who's getting married later this summer - awkwaaaard. So, Beth, smart woman that she is, suggested I ask Kyte if I could borrow his last name and go by E. V. Davis. Sounds pretty awesome, right? So awesome, in fact, that I considered switching my last name to Davis. It fits with this new phase we've entered in our life, in my life. I'm switching from being Em the Protector to being Em for Em's Sake. (Not to say I won't step in to take care of Beth when she can't handle things.) But yeah. Em Davis. And Kyte, he was fine with it. More than fine. He was even okay with me permanently becoming Em Davis. But we both figured I should talk to Guin before I changed my name, to make sure she was alright with it.
And that's where everything went downhill.
And now I feel like an idiot for even wanting to do this in the first place.
*sighs* Not going to get too far into it. I'm just gonna sit and think it over some more. But to me, it feels right. I just... don't know what to do. I feel like if I make a wrong move, everything's gonna shatter around me.
Although tonight just seems to have turned into a big-ass drama mess. And I feel like it's my own fault, bringing it on myself.
Lemme explain it. I was considering coming up with some sort of pen-name for when Beth and I do NaNoWriMo later this year, since I can't be Em Buck with there being an Em Buck in the story. That, and there's the whole thing with the last name being from one of Beth's exes who's getting married later this summer - awkwaaaard. So, Beth, smart woman that she is, suggested I ask Kyte if I could borrow his last name and go by E. V. Davis. Sounds pretty awesome, right? So awesome, in fact, that I considered switching my last name to Davis. It fits with this new phase we've entered in our life, in my life. I'm switching from being Em the Protector to being Em for Em's Sake. (Not to say I won't step in to take care of Beth when she can't handle things.) But yeah. Em Davis. And Kyte, he was fine with it. More than fine. He was even okay with me permanently becoming Em Davis. But we both figured I should talk to Guin before I changed my name, to make sure she was alright with it.
And that's where everything went downhill.
And now I feel like an idiot for even wanting to do this in the first place.
*sighs* Not going to get too far into it. I'm just gonna sit and think it over some more. But to me, it feels right. I just... don't know what to do. I feel like if I make a wrong move, everything's gonna shatter around me.
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Date: 2011-06-05 10:06 am (UTC)*hugs* I hope things work out for you, and we missed you too!