house_gembell: Drawing of a young woman with wavy dark auburn hair and black, square rimmed glasses. (Em)
Oh lord. I missed the internet. I missed being connected to everyone. *hugs the internets*

Although tonight just seems to have turned into a big-ass drama mess. And I feel like it's my own fault, bringing it on myself.

Lemme explain it. I was considering coming up with some sort of pen-name for when Beth and I do NaNoWriMo later this year, since I can't be Em Buck with there being an Em Buck in the story. That, and there's the whole thing with the last name being from one of Beth's exes who's getting married later this summer - awkwaaaard. So, Beth, smart woman that she is, suggested I ask Kyte if I could borrow his last name and go by E. V. Davis. Sounds pretty awesome, right? So awesome, in fact, that I considered switching my last name to Davis. It fits with this new phase we've entered in our life, in my life. I'm switching from being Em the Protector to being Em for Em's Sake. (Not to say I won't step in to take care of Beth when she can't handle things.) But yeah. Em Davis. And Kyte, he was fine with it. More than fine. He was even okay with me permanently becoming Em Davis. But we both figured I should talk to Guin before I changed my name, to make sure she was alright with it.

And that's where everything went downhill.

And now I feel like an idiot for even wanting to do this in the first place.

*sighs* Not going to get too far into it. I'm just gonna sit and think it over some more. But to me, it feels right. I just... don't know what to do. I feel like if I make a wrong move, everything's gonna shatter around me.
house_gembell: Drawing of a young woman with wavy dark auburn hair and black, square rimmed glasses. (Em)
So. Uh. Things with Kyte? Getting better. Very better.

Things with Guin? Amazing.

Things with the husband? Not so much. But oh well. He can suck it, for all I care. Today was a good day, a day where I could be me and not get any flack for it, and it was much needed.
house_gembell: (Em: Pinkie Pie derp)
Figured I may as well catch everyone up on what's been going on, since Beth's been busy freaking out over schoolwork and Ellie's been busy freaking out over the ponies. Gotta admit, I like the ponies too. Pinkie Pie is my favorite, because she's just so ridiculous. XD

Anyhow. School's done in a few weeks - scary. It'll be nice to be done with it for a while, though. Beth's birthday is soon too - in two weeks, actually. And with moving and everything, it's gonna be busy here for a few weeks. S'kinda scary to think that this time next month, we'll be mostly packed up and getting ready to get the hell outta here.

Spent the past few days at the in-laws. Beth hardly had any time to relax, or even do homework, so she's stressing out already. (Half tempted to ask the boss when we see her tonight if we can go in a little later tomorrow, to catch up on sleep and stuff. What we really need is a mental health day, but that ain't gonna happen.) Spent our time either pretending really hard to be singlet, or hiding in the room so I could sneak out and talk to Guin. Or going to the husband's grandparents' house and dealing with cranky Grandma. Urgh.

But yeah. Back to Guin. Ahhh, just thinking about her makes me giggly. It's so... unlike me. But I guess different people bring out different things in you. *smiles* With Guin, it's all good things. Gets me thinking about myself a little more - still sorting myself out, I guess. Not a bad thing, though. It's not like the core of my being has changed or anything - it's more like I'm discovering the little bits and pieces that make me up. It's like... a puzzle, I guess. You put together the outside, the edges, to see where things start to go, and then you fill in the middle. So, right now I'm filling in the middle, and Guin's helping a bit. Kyte too. And even Beth and the husband, a little.

So, yeah, maybe I'm not the cranky, fierce, intense thing I was when I first came onto the scene. I've grown, I guess you could say. Evolved, like a Pokemon. XD

Gonna wrap this up before I make any more dopey jokes. All in all, things are good. :)
house_gembell: Drawing of a young woman with wavy dark auburn hair and black, square rimmed glasses. (Em)
Just wanted to let everyone know I'm doing much better now. Things have been straightened out with Kyte, and while we're not in a relationship anymore, we're still friends.

Found some very unexpected happiness recently with Guin. Unexpected and very enjoyable. The past few days have been very good ones. Which is good, considering I'm trapped at the in-laws for another day and a half. O_o Some vacation this is turning out to be - we've been running around a lot the past few days. Bleh.

Gonna watch some more House while the husband cooks dinner, and work on the new scarf project I started. *grin*


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